Friday, July 30, 2021

Roshini's Blog Post

The sky glowered down at the townspeople, clouds darkening and swelling as coarse winds harshly slapped around trees. The people were clad in flourished attire, every cuff and edge seemed to be embellished with some sort of ribbon or lace. But most curious about the lot was that those with shinier shoes and bigger hair were thronged around a certain house. House was a humble word in this context, as people were awed by the towering mansion of brick. Not only did the house exude a sense of regality, but it was filled with chatter that spilled out of its gaping door.

Those who were lucky enough to stuff themselves into the house would be met with the simple yet rich interior. The woodworks seemed simple, rid of complicated carvings and embellishments, but the quality of the material itself enchanted the visitors. No one could even justify setting a cup onto the exposed tops of the tables. Apart from the deep brown hues of the furniture, the billowing curtains and sheets created such a homey atmosphere, embracing the energy from within the house. And the mirrors of the house seemed to make the space bigger, as if the house was attempting to expand in order to accommodate the growing capacity. People didn’t really care about what the initial purpose of the gathering was; people were drunk from the cheer in the air.


Ava's Blog Post

 Ride From Philadelphia


It was a hot summer’s day in 1793 suburban Philadelphia. The yellow fever was raging throughout the city. The sun was shining into the window of a house, heating everyone on the inside. The house’s walls were light yellow and the floors were wood. It was bigger than most people’s houses and had held many parties. 


 Martha Jones was ironing the wrinkles out of her children’s clothes before placing them into a black trunk. She was wearing her traveling dress for the long journey ahead of her. It had a hoop skirt and was beige with a pattern of triangles. Martha was still quite young but her children have caused her to age quicker. Her dark hair was streaked with gray and her brown eyes had wrinkles branching from their side.

 

“Mother,” a small voice called, “Elizabeth and Meg have returned with supplies we need for the journey and John has gotten the carriage ready. Father wants to leave soon.”


“Thank you, Poppy dear. Please tell John to help me carry the trunk downstairs,” Matha replied.

 

All of the children looked the same, each with brown hair and blue eyes. Poppy, however, had blonde curls, just like her father had when he was young. There were four children; Elizabeth, the eldest, followed by John, Meg, and lastly Poppy. 


Everyone climbed into the carriage. Martha’s husband, Alexander, sat in coach. 


The ride away from the plague was beautiful. The family traveled through the woods. The sun shined through the green leaves. Birds were singing in the trees and other critters were running on the ground. The Jones’ arrived at their destination in three days. Escaping the plague.


Clara's Blog Post

 A Day in the Hospital Wing at the Eastern State Penitentiary During the Yellow Fever Epidemic

The hospital wing was quite populated and crowded with prisoners today. An illness called the yellow fever had been plaguing the majority of the prisoners, along with some of the guards and the doctors. This was a scary time, because I myself was worried about catching the plague, as a surgeon at the penitentiary. Majority of our prisoners required surgery to help with their recovery from the illness, if they could spare their survival for a few days. However, most of the prisoners didn’t make it past three days of intaking the illness. 

Today I was completing my daily rounds as I heard another one of my fellow doctor workmates call out, “Code RED!” This meant that the doctors in the wing needed to revive and resuscitate the patient. I quickly ran to the patient’s hospital cell and quickly provided him with a heart massage to assist with his blood circulation. Immediately after we resuscitated the prisoner, we quickly brought him to the operating room. My team of doctors and I quickly prepared to go into surgery with our patient. We illuminated our surgery lamp, which was so perplexed and big, and included four bright light bulbs in the bowl of the lamp. With the light on, the time had arrived for us to commence our operation on the patient. Medical  supplies were very limited here at the penitentiary. As a result, it was very difficult to operate on the patient. However, after five long and fatiguing hours, our surgery was complete, and our patient had survived from his open heart surgery. The feeling of joy and confidence after the surgery left me with the thought of, “One more patient survived the yellow fever, and I received the opportunity to save his life.” After work I could go home with the feeling and thought that one more person survived this horrendous disease. 

 I went home after the operation that I performed earlier during the day at the penitentiary. As I walked home, I realized life outside of the prison was also very worrisome because several people had fled the city to escape the plague of the yellow fever. However, I made a commitment to the penitentiary to help serve the sick prisoners, and the staff of doctors, surgeons, and nurses were very limited during this time due to people fleeing the city because of the illness. Philadelphia was such a quiet, peaceful, and mellow city without all the people and children, along with animals and cars along the streets. But, it’s quite enjoyable at times because sometimes your day at the penitentiary can be quite disheartening with the amount of patients and the results of how they react to the yellow fever, and all you need is some peace and quietness to help you contemplate on your decisions and steps you’ve made throughout the day. 

I should prepare myself for tomorrow to arrive because as the days go on, the unknown becomes even more effaced. 


Nikkita's Blog Post

 Parallels

The moon shines as bright as the sun tonight. Wavering wind sending shivers through trees and stars adorn the dark overtones of the nighttime. Humidity covers this landscape where rain comes often. Glass shatters somewhere in the neighborhood. The cries of a little girl are heard immediately after as she picks up the remainders of a doll that was once her motivation for life. Its seemingly lifeless body now becoming little shards of fear. She tests its strengths on the intruder who created his own fate. But as she sees the opening from which he emerged, her curiosity leaves all logic even as he pleads her to stop. He yells that she has a chance to stay back but she drags him with her when she sees the hole closing. His body is lighter than the piece of glass which is placed in her palm. She’s barely able to get through as the weight of the opening crushes down on her legs. But when her parents rush in, they see their little girl sound asleep in bed, not moving even a bit. Yet she sees a forest right in front of her eyes. All around her is only darkness. “Welcome to the land of the dead”.

 

Lynsay's Blog Post

 

“Yppah”

I am happiness. 

Pouring all my contentment into his glass of a heart

An equation

thinking it would solve all the problems

In a Bubble Of Trust and love

Eventually that popped

I was happiness. 

When all was well in his eyes 

Unplugging the wire that connects 

He left

Gone In a breath of her heartbreak 

In the end she was the real owner of a glass heart

For it was shattered. 

I wish for happiness.


Renatka's Blog Post

 When Fortunes Dwindle


Screeeeech.


The engine sputters and chokes as rusted wheels skid to a halt against the train tracks, peeling into the bustling station just in time to accept a throng of holiday travelers. Sparks burst out onto the rails, and a sprawling cloud of grey steam settles over the rabble. William glances outside his cabin window as he joins the group flocking to the exit, his eyes sliding from the crowds of strangers babbling and laughing on the platform to the sharp icicles hanging from the station’s roof. Clutching his suitcase tightly, he steps outside the train, the cold night wind battering itself against his face as strangers push and shove him to get inside the train. A few minutes later, the train engine splutters violently once again, and the wheels crash against the train tracks, until the shrieks of colliding metal fade to a distant rumble. William makes his way from the station, a smile plastered on his lips and the beginnings of a bright idea brewing in his head.


The icy ground slides against his boots as he walks down the streets, warm lights from shop displays spilling out onto the snow. The city welcomes and beckons him, past the busy main street with its smells of freshly baked bread and cinnamon cookies wafting through the crowds, and through a tight side alley, around overflowing dumpsters, beggars crouching on their knees, pleading, and a low-hanging clothing line. He doesn’t know why his feet aren’t leading him home, instead crunching through the snow on an unfamiliar path, but he can hear the heavy stacks of bills shuffling around in his suitcase, can feel his mouth start to ache from grinning for so long, and knows the two aren’t unrelated.


He arrives at the casino, the grandiose entrance towering above him, doors inlaid with twinkling lights and abstract carvings. Though he’s heard of the Red Crystal Casino many times before--so much so that the directions to the entrance have ingrained themselves into his memory-never once has he stepped foot inside the painted mass of wood beams, looming above the little record shop next door as if to impose its presence onto the neighborhood. He climbs the stairs to the blood red double doors, adjusts his grip on his suitcase, and rattles the knobs open.


As soon as he steps inside, a cascade of light, laughter, and wine floods past him to the much darker and colder street. He snaps his eyes to a brawny figure in the corner, tapping his feet against the wood floor and fidgeting with a pile of tokens. Just imagine cashing in all of those points! His hands start to shiver in excitement despite the pulsing radiator sitting in the corner of the room, and he barely listens to the croupier welcoming him inside.


Instead, he gapes at the bundles of tables and chairs stacked almost on top of each other in the giant space, between which waiters hurry to refill drinks, barely squeezing past the babbling patrons. The incessant clinking of glasses and ringing of slot machines reminds him of the obnoxiously loud bells of the church his father used to drag him along to--as if he had thought that an eight-year-old boy could be bothered to study the Bible every day when he could be listening to the radio or playing with friends.


At any rate, William no longer has to worry about his fool of a father and his oppressive rules--after that incident with the car crash, Henry Sutton’s strict, nonsensical rules could fade from his memory forever. No longer would he have to spend sunny August afternoons locked in a stuffy library reading 17th century literature; no longer would he have to report his every nap, drink, and conversation to that useless old crow--not with his inheritance wrapped neatly inside a suitcase. He smiles at the thought of this new freedom--the freedom which he could now grant to his own son, despite his father’s wishes--and sits at a poker table, where three other players stare at him as his grin presses against his cheeks. It would be fairly simple to prove his father wrong: to double that man’s entire life savings using a game that he had religiously forbidden throughout his lifetime would be an exhilarating victory indeed.


The evening passes quickly, and his hands clasp and unclasp his suitcase dozens of times as he exchanges tokens and cash with the strangers playing with him. He doesn’t recall their faces or names, only the movement of the tokens, flitting between his fingers as swiftly as a hummingbird, tumbling between his quivering, sweaty palms and the poker table. All night, he glues his eyes to the game, his grin widening at every glorious flip of a token, teeth biting deep into his tongue, and fingers dancing across the table. Occasionally, he drops a clammy hand into his pocket to reach for his handkerchief and slick his greased hair away from his eyes, careful not to let it block his vision.


“Sir? Can you hear me? Sir?”


His head jerks up and his eyes dart to the ceiling, scanning the brightly lit room, landing on the empty chairs, then the waiters cleaning up half-empty wine glasses, and finally to the stout little man standing in front of him, his back to William.


“He still hasn’t woken up yet. What am I supposed to do? Drag him out the door and let him freeze?” The man scowls and turns around, only to flinch backwards and gasp. He stumbles away from William and grabs a chair with one hand, causing another to crash onto the ground.


“Charles? What happened?”


Another, younger waiter rushes over, but stops after seeing William.


“What--Why is he--Sir, are you alright?”


The stout man holding onto the chair stands upright and peers forward. “I was only startled, that’s all,” he says, a note of concern in his voice. “It’s just that… I apologize, sir, it’s simply that when I turned around you were smiling very strongly… and your eyes so wide… I apologize.”


William sits up in his seat and slides his gaze around the room a second time. No players remain at the mahogany tables, only a few waiters cleaning up drinks trays and piles of cards.


“It’s quite alright,” he says, his eyes slipping from one man to the other. “Although, I would very much like to know where my tokens have gone.”


Charles and the young waiter glance at each other, a spark of uneasiness flashing between them.


“Ah.” Charles swallows and pulls out a napkin from his back pocket, which he twirls between his stubby fingers. “Yes.” He glances down at the poker table, where William’s leather suitcase lies, devoid of both tokens and cash, then back to the waiter.


“You see…” He swallows again. “You lost all of your money to that gentleman who came in around 12 o’clock. You remember the tall fellow? With the red mustache? Yes, he wanted you to repay your debt by calling him at his office.” Charles grabbed a business card stuck beneath an empty wine glass and presented it proudly, albeit with a trembling hand, to William. “This number, right here! Quite simple, you see?”


William doesn’t take the card. The man’s fingers’ quaver even more, and he sets the card back down onto the table with a nervous ahem.


“Well, but don’t be alarmed,” the younger waiter hurries to add, after seeing William’s smile fade into a frown. “We assumed… Well, sir, you are dressed quite nicely, and have a good amount of money with you in that suitcase… That is, when you came in. You were just so keen on playing the game uninterrupted, so, ah, entranced were you, that no one quite wanted to say anything after you continued to, well, lose everything.”


“Everything?” William repeats, as if in a daze.


“Well, everything that you brought here tonight. Of course, a fine gentleman like you must have other wealth. Surely!”


William’s heart skips a beat and thrums against his ribcage in short, quick bursts. He does have other wealth--plenty, in fact--but it is nothing compared to the amount he’s lost today.


The two men stare at him, fingers clasped, their eyes nearly bulging out of their sockets, so eager are they to witness his reaction. Sitting in the center of the casino, legs sprawled across the cushioned chair and forehead perspiring at a rate reminiscent of a miniature waterfall, William bolts upright, snaps his neck to the entrance, and hurtles his entire body forward, knocking over chairs and crashing through the red doors, landing face-down on the snow. Shivering, he spits snow out of his mouth and wipes his face with his sleeves, then sits back on his knees.


“Sir! Sir! You’ve--you’ve forgotten to take the business card! You must pay off your debt!” Charles’ voice is a distant shout, overpowered by the snowstorm now thundering down onto the pavement. William pays him no heed, instead scrambling back up onto his feet as snowflakes bite into his hands and cheeks.


“Please sir! You owe a great deal of money!” Charles stumbles down the stairs, panting his hands on his knees, hand outreached and gripping the business card.


William takes one look at him and sprints.


He dashes down the streets now clear of shoppers, his leather shoes smacking into the snow, and feels the wind striking his body, thrashing him backward with all of its might. His jacket flaps in the wind and slaps him in the face; his shoes sink into the snow every ten paces, and the sweat that had previously dripped down his forehead now freezes over in the cold. The storm whips and flings his body up and down and around as if it is only a ragdoll, but still, he keeps sprinting, propelling his entire being forward with a force great enough to drive through the storm. One block, two blocks, three--they all blur together. All he knows is the screaming of the wind, the snow melting on his cheeks and mixing with his tears, and the image of one person, burned forever into his memory.


Through the snow and wind, he can just make out the front of his home if he squints--the sky-scraping wrought-iron gates, leading to the house with each window warmly-lit. Still sprinting, he climbs the gate and leaps off of it, toward the front door, his body exhausted, ready to crumble, but his will stronger than ever.


Shoes packed with snow, suit soaked, eyes gleaming in the storm, he lurches forward and smashes his entire body against the doorbell. Standing on the doormat shivering, he spots a figure moving toward the door through the window, and the door opens--


“Mr. Sutton? Is that you, sir? Why, you ran all the way--” The nanny he’d hired stands at the door, her expression understandably concerned.


“Where’s Eddie?” he shouts, trying to peer past her shoulders into the house.


She steps aside to let him through. “Edward’s upstairs in the playroom, Mr. Sut--”


He races forward, through the entrance hall and up the stairs. “Eddie! I’m home! Eddie?” he calls, rushing toward the playroom door, his heart nearly jumping out of his chest as he bursts into the room.


“Papa?” The boy looks up, smiling, two train cars in his hands, as his father pants, hands on his knees, his expression worn but clearly relieved.


Eddie stood up. “Papa! You’re home! Ms. Virginia said you’d be home early today, but…” He looks down at his hands. “You weren’t.”


William hurries forward and takes his son in his arms to hug him. “I know, Eddie. I know.”


“But why weren’t you?”


“I…” William can’t bring himself to look the boy in the eye. “Eddie, things are going to be a little bit different from now on.”


Eddie looks up at him, his eyebrows drawn together. “What does that mean?”


He doesn’t answer, looking around the room at the velvet curtains, embroidered rug, and plush armchairs. His father’s inheritance is worth more than William’s entire estate despite the manor’s extravagant decorations, and now that he owes that same amount of money…


Once again, he looked at his son’s beaming face, so delighted to finally see his father again, the tiny fingers clutching the toy trains, the round cheeks flush with excitement, and pulls him close.


“Eddie, you have to promise me something right now,” he whispers.


“Okay, Papa!” Eddie bounces up and down, grinning. “What do I have to promise?”


William holds Eddie’s shoulders and gazes into his eyes. “Promise me that no matter what happens to me, you will always hold me close.”


Eddie’s smile fades as he looks at his father. William pulls him into a tight hug and asks again.


“Will you do that for me, Eddie?” His voice cracks and he shuts his eyes.


A tear drops onto Eddie’s head.


“Yes, Papa. I’ll do that for you.”

Wednesday, July 28, 2021

Carrie's Blog Post

 Everything Left Unsaid

I hope…

where do I even begin?

 

I hope you didn’t feel any pain,

that you just drifted away like a feather in the wind.

Gently floating.

 

I hope your back doesn’t ache anymore.

No more waking up at night because of the soreness.

No more PT exercises.

 

I hope you get to take walks again,

wandering through nature without a care in the world.

No bothersome trick knee.

 

I hope you still have your little garden.

Do you still grow herbs and fruits? Maybe you grow flowers now.

Your strawberries are still my favorite.

 

I hope you’ve found someone to read with.

They better appreciate how much you glow when immersed a good book.

I wish we read together more.

 

I hope you’re not afraid of dogs anymore.

That you’ve met a nice puppy up where you are who melted away the icy fear.

I bet you’ll love my future dog too.

 

I hope you don’t worry about us too much.

Dad won’t burn the chicken again and Mom doesn’t lose her temper as much.

Me? I’ll be fine, too.

 

I hope you’re proud;

even when I’m not the obedient, ladylike granddaughter most people want.

Then again, you were never like most people.

Betsy's Blog Post

 My life here is over. I’d say my life everywhere is over, but perhaps that’d be a tad dramatic. Still, this house is nothing but a broken shell of my past life, the life that I want nothing more than to smash into smithereens and leave scattered across the floor for the maid to sweep away.


I’ve said my goodbyes. I’ve let the parrot fly free through the window; he was probably as glad to go as I am. I loathed that infernal pest, but John adored it and I adored him so… 


No matter. John left me. So today I will leave behind the life we made together, the flame we kindled from nothing but ashes, the house that I can gaze at and almost remember a time when the word love didn’t evoke a howl of hunger from within me. 


And today I will leave behind our second son.


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My mother left me. Dolley Todd, or Dolley Madison, now, I suppose. Ha. The woman who beams at visiting dignitaries as she serves ice cream on the country’s finest china, but couldn’t be bothered to feed milk to her infant son. 


Perhaps I’m not being fair. It’s not like my mother left me with nothing. Bertha, mother’s old maid, was always there for me. She never wished to play games or go on outings, but she was useful in the way that an old candle lying in the corner of your cupboard suddenly becomes vital when you hear a noise in the dead of the night.


It’s not the fact that my mother left me that makes everything in this old house so hard to lay eyes on. No, it’s the reason she left me that soaks into my soul like a frosty wind on a bleak winter’s day.


I walk through the house slowly, taking in everything I’m leaving behind. The birdcage with an unlocked door. The buckets of water for putting out fires. My dad’s rifle that he could have shown me how to hunt with if he hadn’t died so soon after my birth. Everything is a reminder of what my life could have been. But I cannot dwell on my mother’s shame for any longer. That is why today, now that I’ve finally grabbed hold of the adulthood I climbed the mountain of my childhood to attain, I will leave this house forever.


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I probably sound like a bad mother. I’m doing my best, truly. 


It’s all my fault that William’s, well, the way he is. My mind swirled into a tornado after John passed on. How could I be a mother when I couldn’t even remember how to be myself? I still do not know. I was walking William in his carriage around the Square, just trying to escape from myself. But then I saw…


I saw a couple holding hands. And they looked so much like John and I did when we were young. Young and free. And they were smiling. I don’t think I’ve smiled since he left me. I don’t know that I ever will again. I couldn’t take it.


I thrust the carriage at a stranger sitting on a nearby bench. “Watch him,” I growled, the darkness inside me spilling over the brim. I ran then, far, far away, my shoes clacking against the cobblestones.


How could I have known William would be bleeding when I returned, or that he would have a hunger for more than I could ever provide him with?


What has become of me? John would be so ashamed.


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I’m on the second floor now, feeling grateful that I’ll never have to trudge up that dastardly old staircase again. I want to look at each room one final time, a kind of farewell to this prison that has become so entwined with me I don’t know who I am apart from it. Walking through the rooms is like looking through the past, a past I was cut out from like a coupon in a magazine. Do I sound bitter? I am.


I stop at the door to Anna and Lucy’s room. It’s always been shut and even as a child, I never had a desire to explore. I spent every moment of each day outside until the curtain was pulled down over the sky and it was time to crawl into bed. There was always much to do in the city. I played at the park, stopped at the market. And, of course, I drank, no better than the mosquitoes who turn people into pubs. But despite all this, I suddenly feel a need to see my aunts’ room.


I’ll tread every inch of this house, even if it deflates me from the inside out. I need to prove to myself that I can. One last time.


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William will be better off here, even if it takes him years to see it. The city is more welcoming to… his kind. I can’t bring myself to say what I’ve made him become. All I have to offer my son is the snobby elite. They’ll look down on him, they’ll tear him apart, kill him if they can get their hands on him. They won’t. Here he may have to live in the shadows, but at least he’ll get to see the sun shine.


But he’ll know that I loved him, right? He has to, and I’m going to see to it. My mother left a mirror to my sisters and me. But I’m sure they won’t mind my putting it to a noble cause.


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My aunts’ room is mostly bare. Some moving boxes are strewn across it, like they couldn’t escape the city quickly enough to finish packing. A desk I suppose they shared faces a window. It’s cracked - like me. I wonder what they saw when they looked out. Now, there is nothing but twigs. Twigs, stones, and mud.


On top of the desk rests a sprig of tobacco. I forget about the epidemic from time to time, and then it comes crashing into me like a wave, all that my family must have gone through, losing my father to the fever. How could my mother have lied to them that I, just a newborn, had died as well?


The bed is in disarray, almost like Lucy and Anna never left at all. Even a half melted candle stands on their bed table. Perhaps I’ll light it and let it sink down before I leave. 


I look up then, into the mirror hanging from the wall. I try so hard not to catch a glimpse at my reflection, but sometimes it cannot be avoided.


And no matter how much I wish to erase them, these fangs will never stop protruding from my gums.


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My sisters’ room is almost empty. Neither of them are like me. They can’t wait to leave the city, to go to elegant parties in the countryside and flirt with young gentlemen. They can’t see past this disease that’s made everyone sick with pain or sick with mourning. But I remember a time when light shone through the gaps between leaves on branches and one laugh turned into many. Philadelphia is beautiful, but I no longer have a need for beauty in my life.


I can see my garden from out the window. “Just lovely,” John would say, tucking a flower behind my ear.


“Me? Or the garden?” I’d ask, grinning upwards like his face was a starry sky.


“Both.” 


John was a man of few words, but now I have none at all. I think I’ll chop away all those lovely flowers before I leave town.


The mirror hangs on the wall. My mother wanted to save a fragment of my father in it, but he said to save it for something more important. This is more important.


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I lean my head against the mirror, suddenly exhausted. Am I really ready to upheave my life today? I suppose it can’t become more pitiful than it already is. I have to remind myself to breathe. Just breathe.


My breath is fogging up the mirror. I step back, ready to wipe it away, but something’s happened. There are words written in the fog.


I squint, trying to read what it says. The handwriting is scrawled, like whoever wrote it was in a rush. Come see what I see, it says. 


What?


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I inscribe some words on the glass, trying not to think about how these words may be the first ones William will remember me telling him. If he finds my message at all. This is my last chance, son.


And now it is time. Time to give a piece of my soul to the looking glass. Not much is left inside me, but I can sacrifice what little I have remaining. I don’t have to try to summon the tears; they come naturally. The dam I’ve built to numb myself has collapsed, and suddenly I’m overflowing. I let the tears trickle down the mirror, creating rivers on the surface. 


Let the tears tell my story. Let William discover all I will never get the chance to say.


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What is happening? This is not my life. My life is boring, melancholy, a shrine to stories no one else remembers. I reach out. The words will fade with my touch, and then I will fade as well. I reach out.


I am pulled inside.


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That is all. I’ve done everything there was left to do, admittedly very little, and now it is time to go. I cannot wait here any longer, not when my family is waiting for me, not when each passing second only makes it harder to let go.


I go to the broom closet where I’ve concealed William from my family these past few days and scoop him up in my arms. He’s sleeping and barely stirs. How could he know he is all I have left for this city that has taken so much from me?


I carry him up to the attic, where Bertha is waiting, her arms outstretched. I do not want him to call a different set of arms home. I do not want any of this.


I kiss my son goodbye.


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I am inside the mirror and everything has gone still. There is no ground below, but then again, there is nothing at all. Where am I?


I feel a tap on my shoulder. Why does it not startle me? Why, as I turn around, do I already know who I will find?


My mother beams at me, but her eyes are very sad. She looks much younger than is possible. I want to run away from her the way I’m running away from this house, but at the same time, I want to make her arms into my home. Instead, I stand still.


“William”, she whispers. “You cannot possibly understand how much I love -”


I cut her off. “No. No, you’re lying to me. You abandoned me. Because I’m a vampire.” I scowl to let her see my fangs, and she shudders, as if to prove my point.


But then she’s crying. “Please tell me that’s not what you believe.”


I sigh. “It’s what I know.” I have no pity for her.


“William”, she grabs my hand and holds firmly, even as I try to pull away. “I left you to save you from my family,” she continues. “But I love you. So, so much.”


And there’s so much I don’t know, so much I cannot understand. But somehow I know that this will not last for long, that right now is the only time I’ll be with my mother in this life. And so I don’t send a snowstorm of questions her way or berate her for choosing her family over me or ask her how I can possibly continue onward when I leave this little world we’ve created.


Instead, I kiss my mother hello.