This that I do

What kind of writer am I?

It’s complicated

Undescribable

Very seldom will you find it

Therefore unrivalable

I don’t boast luxuries I don’t have

I don’t write about romance

So what is there to write about?

I don’t cry about the cruel injustice in the world

Or sit around feeling sorry for myself

So what else would i write about?

Why should I write about an economy or a species

That the very fact that i am apart of it brings me shame

I don’t have or care about feeling

So i can’t write about that

I mean I could but why would i want to?

Fiction is too truthful

Like any other human i can’t bare it!

Non-fiction is a lie.

But…

But this that I do:

Is the fine line’

The fine print Which between underlies.

But i refuse to write about that.

This that I do:

It’s the uncensored story of a world

A world everyone chose to live in ignorance of;

Simply because it’s easier to accept than the candid answer.

And why listen to me spin a whimsical tale

of an old, rusty, dusty, abused, rickety

Abandoned factory of a land!

That only i can see?!

You could be chasing whimsical, grotesque, mythical creatures

That Only you can see.

I don’t waste time trying to inspire a world i don’t care about.

You don’t care enough to waste time to look right there

Yeah

That...little...thing there.

Right there.

Oh yeah, you can’t see it.

Because until this day, you didn’t care enough to realise it’s existence...

Or maybe you didn’t want to.

So again, why should you believe me?

I could be telling the truth…

But i don’t waste my time on that.

I could be telling you... fiction…

I’ve been there

I live there.

By: Style Luxe

Tides

Has there ever been someone that you can't stay away from?

Your friends deemed them toxic

You've probably developed a couple of stress pimples,

but you're still drawn to them?

Well that's my case.

Skittles, Justin Timberlake and basketball don't mean the same to me anymore.

I feel like Alice when she fell down the rabbit any time I look into a boy's brown eyes

Falling deeper and deeper until I reach his heart - 

Just to break it.

Shards of beautiful ruby were scattered.

Pieces so tiny that I'm still trying to put them back together

my hands can't work fast enough and my mouth won't form the words that'll bring him back together.

I still think about the mornings of skipping busses - 

just to see him

Standing out in the cold with a dress on because I thought he'd like it

Waking up on time to fix my hair and get my eyeliner perfect... 

...just to realize he preferred me natural

but that was okay. 

Traces of him are still in my phone despite how much I hate him deep down

but this burning I feel each time I hear that name

See his face

or even think about him

isn't hate.

It's another 4 letter word that scares me beyond scared

a word that I won't say, but I'm saying it at the same time.

While I pour my heart out endlessly he's probably worrying about someone or something else

Song "Our love has gone cold

you're intertwining your soul

with Somebody Else"

"I hate to think about you with Somebody Else."

The term "there's more fish in the sea" means nothing to me

Dang, if anything I'm the fish and he's my sea.

He’s everything I need to survive but

If I die then it’s just another fish gone.

That’s until his entire ecosystem starts screwing up.

Overgrowth of certain plants

Maybe undergrowth

Excessive amounts of whatever I preyed on.

But that probably won’t make his tides stop shifting and from his waves crashing on the sand.

I’ve realized he’s better off anyways. 

In my eyes, I was a beautiful dolphin he enjoyed keeping sheltered in his waves.

A dolphin that belonged in the deep blue but ended up in shallower tides

His lack of depth almost killed me, but I stayed anyways.

I ended up beached on his shores.

Turns out he’s wanted to get rid of me for a while.

However the sweet taste of release set me free from him

And my release being sweet for him too

Because he was free from me.

By: Santana Outlaw

Crimson Red

Crimson Red
By: Maya Anderson

        The corn blue moon illuminates the black star-gazing night - to insinuate a dark, foreboding fate. In this trivial time of the year- Christmas springs in the London air.Ominous  caricatures allure from the foggy windows of the apocalyptic ruins of my city due to the royal class of men in top hats. They claim that the streets of London are surrounded by insolent brats- poor people. Tis not the time for assimilation habitual cynicism of the ere coming of Father Christmas- tis a time for the corrupt streets of London to be painted Crimson Red.
It all began with a woman in pure white under the volition of the man in the black suit - whom she would fall for. She perverts her eyes in shame of her appearance and banal persona, which he is oblivious to. The way their eyes connected was as if lightning sparked through their souls- rudimentary it may seems. They converse in harmony about their anecdote of the past. The lassie, soon comes to a realization that she found her love - they are both nihilist of one philosophy that distanced them from the “normality”.
        He invites her to his home on the western side of the town where not many stay at. The idea of seeing his home was trivial, but the home was far from mediocre. He lived in a three story mansion that towered amongst the tallest of the trees in the surrounding woodland area. Within the refectory they chatted lightly and spoke upon political points along with those of religion. They sip on white wine that was delivered by a lackey, the man was well put together. She began to feel sick so she takes rest in a guest room in the left corridor. She slept long and heavy for what seemed like a day.        
She woke in a dark room unlike where she originally was. We gets up and slowly walks into what seems to be a light at the end of a tunnel. She walked into a large living room full of people in pajamas, gift boxes, food, and cheer. She did not see the man in the pool of people. That’s when a large ringing of bullets rained down on the people in the room. Her idea of happiness and warmth was disillusioned. As the bodies fell, she realized who the shooter must be. With discernment she was able to put blame on the man who had brought her in his home. Footsteps follow behind her. It was none other than the man himself, with a cocked back pistol tightly gripped in his right hand. The man was tyrannical.
As the anecdote goes, he took advantage of the woman that night and murdered her after he was fully pleasured. He was banal at her of her death by grasping onto her with the pistol to her head.
He killed off over 500 people that Christmas day. The citizens of the city began to rebel against each other and many people became itinerant. My family and I moved to the United States where I earned my baccalaureate in Criminal Sciences. I will find the man who killed so many of the townsmen, their wives and their children. Every Christmas nightmare leads to a motive for change in London.

Short Story Excerpt

When I got home, the treehouse called my name. I came to think needed some change in my life. Every day I do the same things. I go to school, come back from school, maybe read a little, eat dinner, and then go to the treehouse. Well, today I’m going to go to the treehouse first! I ventured through the dangling moss coming off of my house and threw my schoolbag on the porch. I then ran to the dirt trail in the back. I reached the redwood tree and made a left. I then saw mushrooms and guided my feet over the ones that looked like they were going to burst into a million pieces. I later started up the ladder counting each step. Six in total. The beanbag in the corner had an indention from my last time. I walked around it and then remembered - Michael!

I rushed down the ladder and through the leaves. I leaped over the mushrooms skinning one and made a right at the tree to go home. I was at the beginning of the dirt path as I sighed seeing no bewildered Micheal. I collapsed on my couch as my mom approached me. I forgot to tell her that Michael was coming. “Hi honey, how was your day?”

“The same as always,” I lied. Today was different. I had a friend.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah,” I said sternly now.

“I got a call from your classmate’s mother. His name was….Michael?”

Shocked I said, “ Oh….yeah, he is new to here. How did he get your number?”

“It was either you who gave him it or things go around town quickly. So, how is he? Does he read, play sports, like games?”

“ I don’t know, he is coming at seven. We will see.”

There was a knock at the door.

“Hey James,” Michael said when I answered.

“Hi Michael, do you want to come in?”

“Actually I was thinking that we could go outside.”

“Ok,” I replied, thinking he must be an outdoors type of person.

We went to the back and I hoped that he wouldn’t spot the trail.

“What does this dirt road lead to?” Michael said.

“Uh, nothing much, just a couple trees, maybe some animals.”

“Lets explore!”

“I don’t think that would be a good idea.”

“Sure it would, what, are you scared?”

“No!”

“Then come on!” He lead the way toward my route. He made a right at the big tree. I rubbed the sweat off my forehead as the sun hit us. But when he took a right it lead to a dead end. He then decided to go back and make a left towards the treehouse. He passed the mushrooms asking, “ Are they poisonous?”

“I don’t really know. I have never been here.” I lied.

By: Ryan Kurtyan

Ebonics

Who said ebonics ain't punctual
who says  I don't talk right just because I don't “talk white”
There’s not much of a difference between “how are you?” and “what's good fam ?”
greeting you in slang just has a more comfortable twang
then the normal hi or hello
I don’t see why I have to switch codes in every new place that I go
Why my tongue has to run from where it comes from
Why  men mark my mannerisms as misguided
no matter how I think, what I say ,  or how I give greetings
people are always  more focused on giving my  melanin a meaning
where black means hands behind your  back
and brown means shakedown
they put prison bars in front of our greatest minds
they keep  our colors in between the lines
I’m pushing 17  and I still haven’t learned how to drive
I fear the  police will pull me over on an “intuition”    
I know ignorance has no  break,pause,or intermission
I'm just  trying to understand why color is always a reasonable suspicion
it's like my skin tone speaks volumes before asking what my name is even crosses your mind,
I must be blind
I just don't get this puzzle’s bigger picture
I guess I’m not bright enough to piece together the parts right  
But I can  certainly show you the dark side from civil rights to apartheid
I can tell you in confidence that  African or African American
no matter what complexion
there's always a blacker bullet waiting to remind you the closest to white you can get is a chalk outline
statistics say by 12 I would have already  committed my first crime,
gone to jail, by 16 I would have been sent there another time  
I’m supposed to be in and out of prison for  my entire life
but that isn't too long considering I’m not expected to make it past 25
The evens and the odds put aside their differences to stack against me
the way they wish to number my days
this skin must have an expiration date
they  judge us  at stands until we mature past ripe ,
work us till we’re sundried  
Forget oranges and blueberries
It seems they love to partake in our strange fruit instead
it's true
I may be a strange fruit indeed
but I do believe that you too can bleed
being near you makes  it hard to breathe
how can I sit still while you take bites out of me,
when I can still  see my skin ,juice, and seeds
poke through your teeth?
I’m so afraid to be torn apart piece by piece
I want to let Maya Angelou know that I'm still unsure of how to let my caged soul sing
loud enough to let the world know that I'm still trapped
but soft enough to hear the muffled tone of  freedom’s ring
freedom rings like  police sirens
like daughters and sons  strung high from poplar trees  
like blacks  being beaten ,battered, and bruised
like the boys in blue putting blood on the leaves
Sounds  like  more love for John and Jane doe
then what's ever been shown Dominique and Jerome
I speak properly because i'm no longer property
the police hold handcuffs to remind me that's optional
I have to remind myself that “talking white” and “talking right” aren't the same thing
But my “punctuality” is my way of  letting my  freedom ring
I let it bang through my teeth like bullets
wordplay is my war fare , I execute tools of rhetoric with excellence
my true  vernacular vibrates with seditious  volition  
In other words my vocabulary is vicious
what I'm trying to say in essence is that articulation will always be a matter of expression
That punctuality should not be about accuracy but about fulfillment
As for me, I speak the Queen’s english but I still want to be the fresh prince
Slang is like my creole
I speak colorfully, my comments are a collage of crayola
I know the meaning of words but I leave them so twisted  
In my war on textbook  definitions that webster's dictionary could never re-enlist them
I want to change my etymology and rewrite my definition
to show that this color isnt defined by ignorance but intelligence
I've had history locked in between these lips
since the first time I heard that martin had a dream
and I can't help but think his vision and what I’m living aren't exactly the same thing
so when I say “what’s good fam ” instead of “hello” and walk away proudly,in actuality
it just a small attempt at making another man’s  dream my reality

By: Matthew Faturoti

Girlish Injustice

I’m a girl

Sugar and spice and everything nice

Although right now I feel more like ice

The injustice makes my head spin

It’s such a long list,

Where do I begin?

A guy’s opinion is listened to,

A girl’s is pushed aside and discarded

We’re supposed to need help,

Be damsels in distress with our delicate feminine charm,

But crying makes us whiny,

Make up your mind,

Why dont’cha?

It isn’t fair and isn’t right

Girls should be a housewife but also a temptress

Make you sandwiches while being independent

When the husband makes more money it’s only right and proper,

But when the girl brings in the cash the guy gets major backlash,

Because oh my god he got beaten by a girl?

This proves he’s not “a real man”

He got beaten by the weaker sex

Beautiful maidens,

Supposed to be the symbol of innocence

Also supposed to have three kids

Before she’s even thirty

Tell us to take off the makeup because we should be natural,

Tell us we’re a fake,

We’re false advertising that already have a domestic fate

Say to be confident,

Yet hate when we are

Say short hair is boyish,

Get annoyed when we grow it

As a girl,

I can tell you I’m not taken seriously,

Told I shouldn’t dress like that if I’m not asking for attention,

Would wearing a nun’s habit finally make you happy?

Say girls are too desperate,

That all we want is a man,

Yet there seems to be no shortage of movies 

that would never pass the Bechtel test

Say girls are crazy and way too possessive,

That we scare you,

When we’ve been taught from day one

To compete in pursuing your affections

Taken out of class because our clothes are too “distracting”

When we disagree we’re catty, because girls should only be quiet and sweet

But when men fight, 

It’s badass,

We’re in for a real treat

Girls can only be straight,

Except for the sexual gratification of men,

In which case it’s “hot”

And not at all genuine

When a guy sleeps around, 

He’s cheered along and 

Considered a stud,

When a girl does it,

She just wants attention

Say feminists are crazy,

That we’re evil,

Can’t say I’m shocked,

 That you’re doing witch hunts again

You tell me that women get handed everything to them on a silver platter,

 But if I did,

If we did,

Then why would this poem even matter?

By: Zamira Sigel-Kulick

Paranoia

Paranoia


Usually in new group settings, I don't speak. I just enter the room
quietly and sit down. I don't talk and if I am addressed I will speak
in a low, inferior tone. I don't talk because of my distracting lisp
which seems to heighten when I am nervous. Some could look at it as a
sign of being silly and they won't take me seriously.
I won't make eye contact because if I do, I am afraid that they will
look down my neck and arms and notice my eczema and the dark skin that
surrounds it. I am also afraid that they will look at my clothes and
see that they are tight around my blessed curves. I only drink water
and reject food because I am worried people will see my curves and
mistake for them gorging down food. I don't smile cause if I do I am
worried that you will look at my teeth and think "why doesn't  she
have braces?" or "can she not afford them?"
I titled this confession paranoia because often I feel that people
look at the so called flaws and think that I am insecure when in fact
I noticed the girl ,who shares some of the same so called flaws, was
ignored by this group of people. So maybe I should change the title
from paranoia to facts of life.

By: Lailah Coleman

Moments Pass

Moments Pass

Moments Pass as I fall deeper
your smile, laugh, and stupid grin makes me sigh
Moments Pass as I watch you lay
your faint breathing fills the room along with he beats of the heart I fell for
Moments Pass as everyone looses hope
I can't give up on you yet
hope is slimming but my love for you stays strong
Moments Pass as I start to grow pain along with you
open your eyes to give me hope again
the love that keeps me strong is killing me
Moments Pass since you've taken your last breath
The drinks I drink help me forget our love so strong
No where is safe so I take some pills and run
Moments Pass since I've stopped running
Moments Pass since I've stopped walking
Moments Pass as I stop breathing

By: Sofie B.

Top

 Top 

Wow what a nice view from up here. Since I'm up here I can't mess with people down there. But they kept calling me to come back but I got to beware. So for a minute ima be down in that square. You in a house then boom, a slam through the door and the cops saying put your hands up. To leave them people down there I wasn't man enough. Thought to myself I was so up. Now it's on me, I acted up. Breaking news, Breaking news a man that had a good future has fallen down. Was it worth it because look we're we at now. You were about to have a great future now. It just water from the drain it goes down. Since you up you are the main focus. You hot in the media like a dragon with halitosis. Now when you wonder did you want this type of notice. So now it's on you because your dumb a*% choose it. 

- Heek Trill

(Shyheed Osbey)